Bonus Content
Midnight Blue
Things are beginning to come clearer every day. My brain won’t stop spinning about it.
So much going on.
Plus socializing today, or any other day lately, nope. She just doesn’t want to do it. On a positive side, exercise keeps me busy. And it helps to keep me focused. That’s what I need.
Focus, focus, focus.
I’m busy. I am. I’m hot, too. It’s nice and muggy inside the trailer. Time for the windows and doors to be opened up. To let in the humid shit. Ugh.
3:16 AM.
Jason is gone. He left about fifteen minutes ago. Everything has been even around here. Calm, and quiet. There has been no arguing, no fighting, no disagreeing, and no name calling.
It’s been pretty awesome.
There has been no touching or kissing of each other. Or any emotional, relationship, feel, good words. That part was never really there. She’s not going back. He did tell her that he loved her right before he left, but I think that is just out of habit. I’m sure. She pretended that she didn’t hear it and went back to her thoughts. Her one-way thoughts. She was getting her table set up and didn’t need the distraction. So she said nothing and went back to her favorite part of the day. In-out…
She’s back in now. The lights turned off out back. When she can’t see past the end of the porch, it’s time to come in and get re-settled. Or maybe try to go back to sleep for a few hours. At least until the sun comes out. I need to plan my day. Example…
I was really looking forward to it. I wanted to go. I still want to go.
But not today.
No church, nor bible study. I messed up. The wrong day. And because of that, I ruined my July calendar. Scribble, scribble, scribble. The new school year calendar should be out about now.
I hope so.
I have a new spot as of recently. I can open the front door and let the morning air in. And I can still hear the river. But do you know what else I can hear up here that was only muffled in the back of the trailer? The bird’s. Not just one, or two. I hear the tree’s screaming tweet!
The tree across the way is huge. It practically covers the trailer on the other side. The blue trailer. With white trim. Dirty, white trim. The awning over the front window is practically black.
They need to power wash.
It’s the rule.
It is written in ink on the bulletin board by the mailboxes. Nobody enforces shit in here. And because of that, some people around here, psst-psst, don’t do anything (shit). I don’t know about these strangers, but they seem nice. They have two American flags hanging off of the roof’s edge.
To each their own.
There is nothing wrong with that. It’s great. Very patriotic. They have nice red mulch surrounded by rocks. And…
Crooked-fucking porch lights.
Ugh.
But soon the sun will light up my crystal to shine its rainbows.
Positive waves man.
I need to start my day off right.
What-to-do…
It will be gorgeous today. Abundant sunshine with a high of 88. A little warm, but it is not supposed to be humid either. Amy will most definitely go in the back and work with her tiger lilies by cutting some down. She’s got too many. Lol. Maybe cut some back and dig some up to save for a later date. Or give them to Trevor to soften up his house a bit. There is one little rainbow floating in the air. Crystal to screen, and screen to the orange wall with the sun and the moon. Good energy. She also may be getting good energy from her Barre’ class that she went to last night. She forced herself to go. She was already a sweaty mess from being outside. When she came home she (they) worked outside until it was almost time for Jeopardy.
Clip, clip, clip.
She was out for hours with the clippers. She cut down all of her irises and cleaned up the Peony’s from the springtime season too.
More tiger lilies.
Yep.
Out they go! (She left a few that are bright orange to poke out from below) While she was out, Jason was grilling dinner. Awesome by the way. The best, ribs. And peas. Yummy. BTW. She doesn’t remember much after dinner. She started getting loopy during TV, so she shut it off and put herself down. She woke up on Thursday, July 9th (2:05 AM) She’s up! And she’s warm.”
Time to open up and turn on a fan.
She wandered around a little until she woke better. Soon she was good to go. She cleaned up everything. When she was done with that she was looking at the bathroom walls and decided that a corner wall needs to be a different color. Not ugly, dirty white. So, to get ready she scrubbed the surrounding area walls. Including the toilet Fucking gross.
BTW.
That Simple Green stuff is awesome! She pulled almost everything out and organized it enough to where she could get around to move and mop. Next step is to putty, and sand.
Then paint.
Summertime bugs
Amy did housework all morning. She had inside stuff to do. She wanted to hurry to get that done so that she wasn’t in-out, all day.
She timed it perfectly.
She was in her garden pulling, cutting, clipping…raking, digging.
A lot of her flowers have already bloomed. Her Shasta’s are still standing. And her sunflowers are peeking out a shade of yellow. Her herb garden is full and abundant. Too full and abundant if you ask me. That’s why she did what she did. Now she is here starving and ready to eat. (Sub’s with the work’s).
5:10 PM.
It seems like it took forever to get things done and put away. She finally came in around 6 (pm) to shower and get into her clean comfortable clothes, eat, and sleep. She was out by 8 pm. EST.
She got a good, few hours nap. She woke up at eleven and sat outside for a few more hours listening to the river. Ahhh…
And hoping there were no bugs crawling on her feet. She keeps her spot pretty clean. But still. It was dark and a billion bugs were swarming the garden lights. I didn’t know if they were also swarming around my feet because the nightlight that I use hangs right below my knees. So I can see.
Raid…
She doesn’t dare take her coffee with. If she does, she needs to dump her cup. Now I know why my mother always covered her coffee with something or other. Usually a coaster. There is a big difference between the spider’s and bugs in Tucson, compared to the spiders and bugs in Michigan. A very big difference. Especially the spider’s. Ewww. I think there are more bugs and spiders out here. The bugs and spiders that are in Tucson are big and poisonous. Brown recluse. Oh! AND THE BLACK WIDOW!!.
Fuck no.
Diamond is snoring. She is next to me on the couch. (As she has been as of lately) She’s been out, she’s been petted, she’s been kissed and scratched. She is my partner during the nighttime hours.
Always…
Jason should be getting up soon for work, it’s 2AM. In fact he is probably in the shower as we speak. I don’t know. I haven’t really been paying attention. I’ve been busy. Plus we don’t talk much as of late. Ooop!
He just came out. To say what a terrible night’s sleep he had.
Every fucking day.
To be expected.
I’m so glad I have a new spot. It’s bigger than my previous spots. (More room for more stuff) I have got all of my stuff set up perfectly. All I need is within reach. And, I have something new! Something old, but new. I have my couch!
A comfy spot.
A spot I have been at since I figured some things out.
I even have my pillow’s and salt lamps. One electric, and one that runs on tea candles.
Speaking of…
Jason is gone. The lights are out and I am going to light my candles and plug in my diffuser. I am going to diffuser all of the negative energy away. But My candles are getting smaller every time I see them. (That’s the reason I haven’t lit them) Broke, broke, broke.
Amy’s on a mission.
Right now is a good time to light them. I am at peace. And alone. But first I must go outside to breathe in the hot but fresh air. My computer is filthy.
Ugh…
Okay. It is 6:16 AM. In between 3:25 and now she has gotten the bathroom ready to be worked on. Taping…
It needs to be all taped up by 3.
She tried to clean the walls as best as she could. Not too much. Just make it look like we are re-doing the bathroom. She’s only doing that one corner which is now dirty and full of holes. She is probably going to paint tomorrow. We are having a shower guy come out to give us an estimate on how much a new shower would cost. A walk-in. I’m tired of the bathtub. It’s good for one year. Perfect. This gives some time to work on a plan. Ex.
If I am still in this place next year it will need to be upgraded. No more waiting to have Jason do it.
Like I said…
I’m on a mission.
Of course that’s what I said when the Domino Affect, took effect.
You spin me right round baby right round-round…
As soon as one ends, another begins.
I’m not going back from this page, forward.
That being said…
Onward and upward.